Happy Holidays!

I feel like I made the right decision in postponing the wedding.  Thomas and I had an argument last night and I told him that I just wanted to end this relationship.  I am tired of being his maid or his mother.  I don't appreciate the fact that he does nothing for his own upkeep except shower and change clothes.  I do the wash, fold them put them away; I also fix his meals, pack his lunch, do the dishes, the shopping, putting all the food away...the only thing I don't do for him is wipe his butt!  He would like it if I did that too.  I told him that I was tired of his attitude and that I will never, ever go shopping or run his errands with him again.  That is just too painful.  He just does not get it and I cannot seem to get him to understand it. 

In the meantime, I am getting ready for Christmas.  I have finished the shopping and need to finish the baking.  I have Sugar cookies baked and partially decorated.  I have Peanut Butter Cookies mixed up but not baked.  John and I are going grocery shopping tomorrow and I will be able to finish the baking this weekend I hope.  Monday I will need to call and see if I can get an appointment for Lanie as I had to cancel yesterday because I fell on the ice and hurt my back, hip and legs.  I also need to stop by Unemployment for my 4 week check in.  I need to start cleaning this house and the bunk beds will be delivered on Monday.  We are renting beds for the kids just for the wee so they have a place to sleep.

I talked with Linda this afternoon (my future sister-in-law (maybe)).  She is pregnant with a baby boy.  She wanted to share the news but I cannot say anything because John has not told his brothers yet.  Linda is hoping he will tell them this weekend so she can share the news but she knew that she could tell me because I won't say anything.  Hopefully none of my future in laws know about or read this blog.

Over the next few weeks or months I have some decisions to make in regards to my relationship with Thomas.  I have to see if this relationship is going to work.  I do know that I do not want to live the rest of my life as I am right now.  I do not have to stay with someone who makes me feel crappy about myself.  There will be much more of this in my future blogs.